When I was 20 and fresh out of college, I never really understood why more mature women would not want to talk about their age or why they would conceal their real age. I couldn’t exactly figure out what the fuss is all about. They’re mere figures. Why be afraid of them?
But how time flew. It has been seventeen years since I had that frame of mind. Now that I’m in my late thirties (yikes!), I’m a little apprehensive of celebrating more birthdays and adding more and more years to my current age of 37. My son is only 2 years and 6 months old now. Doing the math, I’ll be 55 by the time he celebrates his 21st birthday. Boy, I’m old enough to be his grandmother by then.
What are my fears exactly? Anything and everything that has to do with getting old: fading beauty, sagging flesh, wrinkled skin, poor health, disability, dependency. But these things we can’t escape, and so I’ll just console myself with the thought that I’m not the only one who’ll experience these. Misery loves company, so they say.
For the moment, I’ll enjoy what life has to offer, live my life to the fullest, and feel forever young. And here’s my birthday wish: That I live long enough to witness all of my son’s firsts and to see him settled and content with a wonderful family of his own. Oops, lest I forget, today is my birthday!
But how time flew. It has been seventeen years since I had that frame of mind. Now that I’m in my late thirties (yikes!), I’m a little apprehensive of celebrating more birthdays and adding more and more years to my current age of 37. My son is only 2 years and 6 months old now. Doing the math, I’ll be 55 by the time he celebrates his 21st birthday. Boy, I’m old enough to be his grandmother by then.
What are my fears exactly? Anything and everything that has to do with getting old: fading beauty, sagging flesh, wrinkled skin, poor health, disability, dependency. But these things we can’t escape, and so I’ll just console myself with the thought that I’m not the only one who’ll experience these. Misery loves company, so they say.
For the moment, I’ll enjoy what life has to offer, live my life to the fullest, and feel forever young. And here’s my birthday wish: That I live long enough to witness all of my son’s firsts and to see him settled and content with a wonderful family of his own. Oops, lest I forget, today is my birthday!
7 pensive thought/s:
I have exactly the same feeling and fears too. When I reached my 30's i made a joke i want my life to stop at 35, i don't want to be feeling old and helpless when i really get old as in old and wrinkled. We'll see where life leads us. Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday to you. I can completely relate to your feelings. I turned 39 last month and my little one 4 years old. So I guess we both had our kids at the same age. It seems like I'll be an old lady once my little one turns 20. Yikes. Hope you have a fun day. Take care.
Hello,
I now realize we live in the same building :)
I'm a stay at home mom too and I've seen your son around and of course the interiors of your home gave it away. :)
Happy birthday! Wag ganong mag worry kasi it's something inevitable, di ba? As long as you're happy, that number can go up all it wants...hehehe. I also had my little one a bit late at 35 [I'm 42 now] but I wouldn't have it any other way kasi I believe that I was a much better person at that age than when I was younger.
Hope you had a great birthday!
J
Happy birthday mommy, we're in the same club here, having kid at 30s :)
Well Happy Birthday! I can SO relate to how you are feeling! I am 39...just had my 8th baby in July! I tend to think towards the future and how old I'll be when they are a certain age..I had to stop doing that because, to me, age is only a number...I still feel 20 something! Anyhow...I love your blog and cant wait to read more!
WELL I GUESS I AM IN THE SAME BOAT TOO! I TURNED 37 LAST MONTH AND IT FEELS IFFY BUT GREAT, TO BE HERE...
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